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So far, So good

gangstamittens — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 14:31:48 +0000

I’ve managed to keep my study schedule so far. That in and of itself is an accomplishment. But the thing I’m most excited about is that I’m actually understanding and retaining what i’m learning. Believe me when I say that isn’t always the case. I actually find myself wanting to study a little longer, which hopefully means that i’m more focused and determined this time around.

As part of the Certified Public Managers course that I am in I read a book about the importance of taking small steps. Even though I find myself wanting to continue studying, I try not to let myself do it. I actually think it would be detrimental to move forward with the material because I might burn myself out. Plus there will be PLENTY of time for pushing myself as I near the end of this journey.

I also went back to see the rheumatologist. The amount of pain that I was in was unbearable. I like to relax with the best of them, but feeling stuck to the couch day after day without the strength to get up was blowing me. Of course i got scolded for taking myself off the meds, and they prescribed a buncha stuff, but i’m really trying to be a good patient this time around.. really!

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92 Days to Greatness

gangstamittens — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 03:51:44 +0000

I have always felt like i do my best work when i’m ridiculously overwhelmed. So to test this theory, i have decided to bite off more than i can possibly chew… I know, that probably seems foolish. BUT, if i know me like i think i do, it could prove to be a very wise decision. Only time will tell. All i know is, I have about 92 days to make some major changes and (as of today) I feel up to that challenge.

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Quiet

gangstamittens — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 00:54:24 +0000

It’s time for me to go back to seeing a doctor of some sort because I’m honestly overwhelmed. There’s nothing I want more than to just sit in a quiet house and wait for my head to stop pounding. My mom isn’t doing well… at all.. And honestly neither am I. Everything just seems to be falling apart and that’s a terrible feeling… the sad part is, I really don’t know what to do. I feel completely helpless. Torn between feeling selfish and feeling like there’s nothing i can do.
My body hurts… i mean it truly truly hurts. Every movement hurts. I don’t talk about it because i don’t want to bother anyone. Mostly i just try to sit around… preferably somewhere quiet. There’s a lot of noise around me lately… and i just don’t like noise. All i know is that i need to get a handle on some things or else I’m going to go crazy… and honestly, i don’t even have time to be crazy.

Pray for me.

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Osama Bin Laden

gangstamittens — Tue, 03 May 2011 20:05:13 +0000

On September 11, 2001, when the towers came crashing down and firefighters were working to put out the fire at the Pentagon, the news was full of images from various middle eastern countries showing people taking to the streets to celebrate the devastation in America. The images made me physically ill. I couldn’t imagine celebrating the death of other human beings. So when Americans took to the street on the night of May 1, 2011, after hearing that Bin Laden had been murdered. I was equally disturbed. I’ve heard many arguments for why it was ok to celebrate… this is war… he admitted to planning the 9/11 attacks… the casualties inflicted by Bin Laden are far worse than what we did… and worst of all that this was justice for what he had done.

I don’t support the war, so the war argument falls on deaf ears. Bin Laden did allegedly say that he was responsible for 9/11, but he also said he wasn’t. People choose to believe what they want. If he had said he did at first and then tried to take it back people would still choose to believe he did it, so that argument holds little weight with me at all. If you want to weigh the events of 9/11 with the events of 5/1, then yes, that’s thousands vs. 1. But that’s a reckless way to approach it. Especially with little to no consideration for what drove Bin Laden to “allegedly” attack the US in the first place. I need to make this as clear as possible. I am NOT and have not ever been a sympathizer. I do not in any way shape or form feel that the actions of 9/11 were justified, but to act like Bin Laden just woke up one day and said “I just feel like bombing the US” is ignorant. Years of US foreign policy led him to believe that these actions were somehow justified, and those policies led to several civilian casualties in countries many of us had never heard of before 9/11.

But even with all that, the thing that bothers me the most is hearing his execution referred to as “justice”. I don’t believe in the death penalty to begin with, but to call an execution with no trial “justice” upsets me more than anything.

I guess this is just a rant of sorts. The whole thing has left a bad taste in my mouth and I hope that people consider how those “celebrations” must have looked to the outside world… especially since we’re such a “civilized” country and all.

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Back to the Bay

gangstamittens — Wed, 08 Sep 2010 13:46:53 +0000

After a year-long hiatus, I’m heading back to San Fran for the second time in 2 months. This trip is a little different from the previous trips because we’re heading west to participate in the Alzheimer’s Memory Walk. The purpose of the event is to raise money and awareness of the disease in an attempt to provide resources for the families of those with the illness and money for research into the causes and a cure for the disease.

Obviously, with what happened to my father this is a pretty big deal to me and I’m really looking forward to it. The only downside is that I’ve been in a LOT of pain as of late, and while the doctors have ruled out lupus and rheumatoid arthritis, there not sure of too much beyond that. It’s frustrating to say the least, but i’m happy about the things that have been ruled out.

Hopefully, I’ll be done packing so that i can get some rest tonight. It’d be nice to be awake for most of the flight, but i’m really not counting on it.

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