Gangsta Mittens
Words combined to express thoughts. Pictures displayed to convey emotion. Opening my brain to the world.

I will admit that I have been avoiding this blog. It’s not that i don’t have anything to say, it’s just that i don’t have any “good” news and it’s frustrating the hell out of me. I’m in a holding pattern for a job i really want… i should know something definite by the middle of this week, but the suspense is killing me. I’ve actually been having a lot of trouble sleeping. I’m a bit of a control freak (understatement) and this lack of income combined with painful boredom has left me extremely anxious. My sleep patterns are off. I toss and turn, wake up at odd hours… and i’m feeling just generally crappy. I’m clingy, emotional, and to be honest, i’m getting on my own nerves. Then there’s the side of me that can’t help but think about all that i could’ve/should’ve been doing with my “free” time… i’m just ready to move on to the next phase in my life.

I am also about 19 days away from my bar exam results… i’m pretty sure i failed. No that’s not some “prepare for the worst, but hope for the best nonsense”, that’s just legitimately how i feel. I freaked out and stopped studying about three weeks out… but i also went in and did my best, so really, it’s a toss up, but i’m preparing myself to retake it in Feb. I mention it though because it is yet another example of how things in my life are just in a holding pattern right now. It’s frustrating to say the least. I’d just like to get some closure on some things and begin to plot my next move.

All i can say at this point is that SOMETHING has got to give. things can’t continue on this path… hopefully i’ll have some exciting news to update with soon.

*crosses fingers*